It's already 2015?!

Hello..?

Wow, I honestly can't believe that the last time I updated was 22 June 2012! It's really scary how three years have gone by so quickly.In fact, it's already the end of November and we'll be saying hello to 2016 very soon. In fact, I'll be turning 23 years old this December; 2 years more to a quarter of a century LOL.

It's been such a long time since I've written properly like this. My writing skills are really rusty now and I noticed that it's taking me longer to articulate my thoughts. So, do pardon my bad grammar and vocabulary.

GOSH, I was reading my old posts and I was cringing so so badly at all the stupid things I've written. How did people even find them entertaining last time?! God knows. I was so tempted to delete a few posts but I couldn't bear to. It was after all a memory of who I was once upon a time. It's also really nostalgic to relive some of the things I been through. I actually forgot so many things that happened so I'm really glad I documented them.

Out of curiosity, I checked my blog stats and I was really baffled that there are still people visiting my blog! I have no idea if it's intentional or if it's just an accidental stumble; nevertheless, it's still feel good that there are people out there who know my humble little domain.

I don't know why I suddenly stopped blogging. I remember I used to love penning down my thoughts and sharing the pictures I took. I remember feeling really happy whenever my friends told me that they read my latest post and how funny it is. I guess I had the luxury of time back then.

But, it's not like I'm really free now also fml. It's actually one of the busiest time of my life but I don't know why I suddenly felt like blogging. Maybe I'm just finding a way to procrastinate and to avoid cleaning my room (which is a disgraceful mess) hahaha

Anyway, I guess I should give a little update since there's like a huge time jump from then and now.
I'm currently a final year medical student! To be honest, I still can't believe it. When I was in my first year, I thought the fifths year are all so grown up and that they know everything.

 Well, I'm definitely older now but I know absolutely nothing. In fact, I'm still as clueless as ever hahaha!

To be honest, it still feels a bit surreal that I'm almost halfway through the year and that I'll be graduating in July 2016. It feels so quick and yet slow at the same time considering that most of my friends are working now. Gosh, I don't even want to think about working. It's just such a huge leap from being a mere medical student to a full fledged doctor with tons of responsibilities. It's scary and intimidating to know that I will be making decisions for people who trust me despite me being a complete stranger to them.

It is certainly a privilege to have people trusting me enough to tell me things that they normally keep to themselves. I find myself humbled so many times by the journey that patients went through. That's one of the many reasons why I love medicine. It's dynamic, exciting and has a very special human touch that no other occupation have. Despite the neverending work and stress, I still find myself grateful that I'm in this field.

Nevertheless, all that glitters is not gold. In fact, I have a good story to tell!

The other day, I was switching on my laptop waiting for my computer to load. Usually I don't bother shutting down, I just put it in sleep mode so I don't have to wait for it to load. #impatient But I did it this time because it was lagging like crazy so I decided to let it rest.

Anyway, while it was taking its time to load, this picture suddenly appeared.

I was like WOW! Since when I had this picture?  Then, I suddenly remembered that it was a picture I took 2 years ago when I was in Slovenia with my friends. Lake Bled is one of the most beautiful place I've been to.

So while I was sitting there trying to figure out why it suddenly appeared, this popped up.

LOL HAHA! It's my desktop background all along!

Does anyone do this too?! I have such a bad habit of saving everything to my desktop and not bothering to organise them in folders afterwards. I hope I didn't give a heart attack to any OCDs out there haha.

But that really made me really think. Those documents are the assignments I did over the years and somehow they obscured the picture. I realized that I've been so consumed with medicine that I can't see what's in front of me sometimes. I kind of stopped pursing many interests like reading, literature, piano, photography and blogging. Heck, I struggle to keep in touch with my family and friends many times.

When I'm engrossed in something, I tend to forget about everything else. It can be quite unhealthy habit; for example in medicine where it's basically neverending lol. It's really easy to be trapped and to lose sight of other things that are equally important. So, that's when I realize that maybe I should take a step back once in a while and have a breather.

Haha, maybe this is why I suddenly got the urge to revive this blog.

Anyway, I think I rambled way too much. I started writing without any plan at all. So, I'm quite surprised at some of the things I've written above because I have no idea that I'm feeling this way now. That's why I love writing, it can be really therapeutic and it often helps me to disentangle my thoughts.

I really hope I will continue this! Hopefully, I'll find the time to update once a week. If not, I'll see you in 2018? haha!

Till then
Pikee

Reflection. :)

I honestly can't believe 9 months had passed just like that. It seems like it was just yesterday when I first stepped into this whole new world. I can still conjure up the whirlpool of emotions I felt that time. There were excitement, anxiousness and also happiness, tinged with sadness. My parents did not stay very long with me and I was left to fend for myself. I remember wondering whether I could fit in well in this foreign land, if all the matsallehs would be welcoming haha! All my worries are proven wrong :)

 Clifton Suspension Bridge. Bristol's iconic landmark!

I pass by this area everyday on the way to my lectures. :) I'm so jelly of the law students for getting that nice tall building on the left! The medical buildings are so ugly -_-

Tomorrow, I am moving out of my hall.  I remember I felt so lucky to receive a comfortably sized room and was even looking forward to decorate and making it my own. Sadly, the most I did to my walls was pasting lists of horrendously long drug names -_-That's the limit of the creative side of my brain, le sigh.  Guess I can't be the next Leonardo da vinchi.

Goodbye Goldney Hall ! Thanks for all the memories!

I will never forget this lovely scenery.

I guess the thing that I love most is my freedom. Most of the shops and restaurants here are within a walking distance so I can go to everywhere my feet can bring me. I'll probably be most restricted in Malaysia since I can't drive -_-  My probational licence expired last week and it dawned on me that the only time I drove properly was during the driving exam LOL. Everyone say that driving is like cycling. Once you learn the skill, you can pick it up very easily. But the problem is, I can't even cycle LOL. Good game, indeed.

I feel really glad too that I met so many friends and even people from different parts of the world. I'm still awkward around new people but I'm working on it. I gotta thank everyone for being so patient with me haha! Thanks to them, I didn't really get homesick like some I heard who cried everyday and had to be sent home LOL. why so serious?! chillax lah

To be honest, I still don't feel like a university student. When I was a little kid, university students seem so grown up to me and the idea of me becoming one was too far in the future. Although I am one now, it still feels very surreal, as if I'm living in a dream. I've always wanted to become a doctor ever since I was in kindergarden. Don't ask me why, I'm honestly not sure what exactly sparked the interest of the 6 year old me. Probably it's the hong kong medical dramas my grandmother used to watch every afternoon. haha!

I'm going to hit the big 20 this year I'M SO OLD I'M GETTING WRINKLES. (I can imagine my mom say, eh, if you old then I'm what? LOL)  It's time for me to step into the adult world and break free from my comfortable cocoon. Sigh, part of me don't want to and part of me is eager for my own independence. I guess it's time for me to buck up and  'run this motha word' like Beyonce' preached. LOL

Not everything is rainbows and unicorns though. I struggled a lot with the massive amount of new things to learn. It came to the point where I was just blindly memorizing as much as I can without understanding it properly because there simply wasn't enough time. I was doing okay in my studies before university so it was quite a blow to my self esteem when I did not score as good as I expected. I turned from someone who always tried to score the highest to someone who is just satisfied with a pass. You can sense from my previous posts that I was feeling helpless. hahahaha.  But I guess it's something I have to get used to and I'm trying my best to cope! :) The key is to stay positive! :D


 I think I mentioned this thousand of times but I feel grateful too that I have the opportunity to pursue my ambiton. My course is definitely one of the most expensive course and not to mention the high living cost. I really want to thank my parents for giving so much encouragement. Never once did they ever pressured me to pursue medicine (although many people thought so since it's an Asian thing LOL) and my mom even told me that it's okay if I can't cope and it's fine if I want to pursue other things. See how awesome are they! Wait, is it a reverse psychology? haha!! Anyway, thanks a lot dad and mom, you both mean the world to me :) 

So, that's the end of my stay here in Bristol! I'm really looking forward to the glorious summer holidays back in my lovely country. The best of all, I'm going to see my family tomorrow in London!! Reunited after 9 months woohoo! We'll be travelling around so I won't update so often till I'm back.

Forgive my horrible eyebags. I slept without pillows and duvets last night and woke up at least 10 times LOL. ANYWAY, peace out yo! :D

Have a great holiday everyone!

Till then,
pikee.

Goldney Ball 2012 :D

I had such an awesome time during the Goldney Ball ! I heard that it is a very popular tradition and is a must go event. Even my personal tutor recommended me to go and he graduated about 10 years ago LOL.  

Let's start off with a vanity shot of myself LOL.

AHEM, I'm actually very humble cause I resized this picture as large instead of extra large. LOL. I am proud to say that my complete outfit only costed me 9.50 pounds. haha!

I stole that dress from my sister who wore it for Chinese New Year two years ago, the necklace was a gift, and the biggest deal of all, high heels for 5 pounds! RM 25 for a pair of high heels is such a good deal ! I felt like crying with happiness when I received the parcel :D 

I got this flower in H&M for 3 pounds! It's a bit pricey but considering how much I saved, I can splurge more. Besides, I'll be keeping this for a very long time so if you divide the price by the amount of years, it's quite a good deal !! If I pass this down to one of my grandchildren, it'll be even more worth it !! *cheap

The remaining 1.50 pounds is for the lipgloss which has a rather nice colour :)

This is how, ladies and gentleman, you save money for a ball. LOL

I loveee dressing up and putting on makeup! I've been practicing to draw eyeliner on my single eye lids (and been made fun of) It's honestly pretty difficult cause I have to draw really thick for it to be obvious. Haih, I guess I should get some double eyelid stickers next time!

The dinner menu. The food looks SO delicious right. I was salivating, thank god nothing dripped LOL.

I sat in a table of 7 with some very nice friends :)

 Lizzie and Jonnie :)

Alex who is technically in a spot light! haha :)

Nina, who has been mentioned in my blog for 1390843 times and Matt  :)

Starters! To be honest, I was not very used to the taste haha! I've only ate bread with jam and butter, not with pesto, oil or mozarella cheese balls. But at least I tried it ! :)

Alex in agony when she failed to open the wine bottle. haha! 

Roasted hake with cream sauce along with mash, greens and carrots. It was pretty yummy! But, I still prefer the creamy mash served in Nando's. It is heavenly good! I had a large serving this afternoon :D

Wild mushroom risotto. It was surprisingly good ! I shall order it if I saw it in a menu next time :)

One of the best desserts I tasted in my entire life. True story LOL

I love the popping candy which is true to its name, popped in your mouth! Weird but nice sensation. The dark chocolate was smooth and rich but not sickeningly sweet! Waaaaa, now I'm craving for another helping and I don't think I can find this anywhere else :(

 Happy with the dessert ! :)

We met (the fake) Katy Perry! :D She was pretty good actually !

We danced and sang along to her songs which was fun! I manage to embarrass myself with my old cool sixties moves so all is good LOL.

The whole place was illuminated with pretty lights! The garden looked so beautiful that night :)

There were marquees all over the place and inside different things were going on. The one we entered had a life band where everyone grooved to the music. The other one had shisha and we also found an AWESOME photobooth!

Two super gorgeous ladies! :)

HAHA, we look short LOL. Bad angle, Lizzie :P

There was a box with wigs, hats, helmets that we could wear in the photobooth! Insanely awesome or what?

EPIC FAIL HAHA!! Look at nina's face! It was obvious she was caught off guard. LOL. Alex was missing in 3/4 of the pictures hahahaha

It was so hilarious! It took us 5 tries to finally get it right. We had to get the positions, timing and angles right omg, someone please give us a Nobel prize! We had to enter the photobooth discreetly without drawing suspicion for entering too many times. Thank god for the wigs. HAHA

TADAH! :D I LOVE this picture so much, it's going into my scrapbook :)

We went to a fire show which was really good ! I always wondered how on earthy they managed to do tricks like this without getting burned. hmmm. 

I also noticed that they shaved their arm and armpit hair !! They probably don't want their armpits to catch fire LOL okay, too much information. Let's move on.

 The queue for the silent disco which we skipped cause we were exhausted. Basically, everyone brings their own headphones and music and just danced to according to their own beats. I've always wondered what happens when you get a slow song. Your partner will be pumping their fists in the air or head banging or whatever while you are pulling off  the swan lake moves. LOL so weird right?

THE END.

LOL.

Thanks to everyone for making this night awesome and also to the committee who made this night a success! cheers!

Till then,

pikee

WOOHOO!

YEY! I am officially done with my first year :) I honestly can't believe I will be a second year student by the end of this year. Time really flew so quickly :)

Strangely, I'm even busier now that it's the holiday because I have to start packing everything since my hall is only for first years. My friends and I are moving to an awesome house when we come back to Bristol. It's awesome because it's just 5 minutes away from the lecture hall ! I can foresee myself being obese due to the lack of exercise. hahahaha

Ugh, I can't believe I bought so many clothes! I thought I can finish packing within a day but it's the third day now and I'm only halfway through. T_T  My room looks like a total war zone now. I would take a picture to show you guys but I shouldn't just in case a neat freak gets a heart attack, dies and his family tries to sue me for insurance. LOL.

Thanks to those who are still reading my rather boring blog ! It's kind of surprising to know who are your readers ( Alex, if you're reading this, i'm still shocked LOL)  but still, thanks for dropping by! :)

Okay, I think I should get back to my packing since I'm planning to move some stuff over tomorrow! I'll definitely update more. Here's a preview :)

I need my FREEDOM.

I can do this. Just 5 more days and I'll be free forever!! Well, 3 months to be exact.

Sorry for the short post. here's a potato.

Till then,

pikee.

TAG's night! :)

I had a very awesome drama and pizza night with my friends! :) Three of us ordered 2 large pizzas, potato wedges, garlic bread and a litre of coke. When I placed my order, I remembered thinking shoot, there goes my eating healthy plan. LOL. I can already feel the increase in my waistline. sigh

Anyway, I guess it's alright to reward myself a bit since I did exercised voluntarily this week. I was rather shocked by my sudden determination to exercise (especially after learning how bones and muscle will waste away if you don't)  and was rather pleased with myself. However, I grew lazy and bored, hence the pizza and drama.

You might be wondering about the title (or you completely ignored it and jumped straight to the post) and what does TAG means. Well, it means Temporary Alone Group. LOL. If you put together junk food, romantic drama involving the perfect hero that is pretty much non existent in our world and the subsequent complain and laments about WHY he doesn't exist, you get three girls who seem very desperate and forever alone. LOL.

But I assure you, we're NOT. Just because it seems so doesn't mean it's true! Ok, now I sound very defensive. hahahahaha

The name was came up by me after the original name was dropped. I initially named our little group the Forever Alone group LOL. The others agreed and we've been using it for quite some time. Then suddenly in the midst of stuffing a pizza into my mouth, I realized that its acronym is FAG. LOL. I thought it was  hilarious and unique but predictably the others protested. So, in the end, among ourselves, we're FAG (LOL, it does sound wrong) but to the others we are officially known as TAG! :D

So, here's to FAG/TAG and our future endless pizza and drama nights!

Till then,
pikee

Insomia.

It's 4.31 am now and I can't sleep.  LOL.

All thanks to the inappropriate nap I took for 4 hours. Sigh, for the millionth time, I really need to readjust my sleeping time asap. I've been trying to kill time by studying (failed), watching random videos on youtube (succeeded) and playing tetris battle on facebook.

Tetris battle is soooo addicting! I couldn't stop playing at all and I'll always think of new strategies to win the game before drifting off to sleep. LOL. Despite my fondness towards the game, I blocked it from my timeline because I find it so embarrassing when stuffs like 'Pik Ee Chan just sent 50 lines' or "Boom boom boom, Pik Ee Chan scored 10 combos"  appear because they seem so exaggerated, as if I found a cure for cancer instead of just fitting pieces of blocks together. LOL. Apart from that, all my friends could see them and would know the reason why I take forever to reply their facebook messages. Although now, facebook's new feature lets them know that I've seen their message, so I have no choice but to reply anyway. LOL.

But having an insomia is not too bad. Like my sister said, I won't be jet lagged when I return home!

Oh gosh, I can feel a frizzle of excitement running through me as I am typing this. I can't believe 8 months had passed so quickly. I'm having one final exam two weeks later and I'm done! Goodbye to first year and hello to three glorious months of summer holiday! :D I honestly can't wait for the holidays to come!

Ok, it's just a very short update to kill time. I shall continue to roll around in my bed till my body succumbs to exhaustion.

Till then,
pikee

EDIT: YES!! I've just upgraded to a new level. LOL. ok, back to sleep for real this time.